Toldja i'd be here again. my mom was lookin up hotels. man Sara and I were talkin about takin a nice Roadtrip, hitch hikin to Arizona or something. Living like a bunch of hippy's. that would be great. I would love to run away from home and never come back. Maybe then I wouldn't feel depressed or sad or feel the urge to cut. I dunno....just a dream i guess....I just don't feel like sayin much tonight. I keep begging for a sign that it's time ti take that leap. I want to be pushed over the edge, right now I'm just hanging off the ledge I need one small push to get the courage to take those pills or to pull up that rope....Anything....Anything at all......Just let me wallow in my sorrows