OMFG Saturday night killed! My dad got pissed at me and like he disconnected all the phones in the house from the outside so I couldn't get online and we got into a fight and the fucker pinned me against the wall and beat the fuck out of me and I don't even have any bruises. Bastard. So like I said fuck you and left.So I walked to Sara's but I ran into her and Dena with the twins so we sat at the park and talked and liek yeah. Dena saw my 89 cutz and was like You're fuckin nutz. It's like....thanx....lol..... So liek we went back to Sara's around 7 and then Jose and Ridge came in the van. they are such dumbass's! lol but it was kickass. there's no seats in the back of the van so we had to sit on the floor and Liek Jose is a fuckin nut when it comes to drivin so we were all over. We went and Picked up Katie n then like we went to the Muse and the band there sucked so we went to American Legion cuz Nate was suppose to meet us there and liek he ditched us. So we argued with the bitchy Bridesmaids there guess there was a reception or somethin. we had Liqour and everythin so liek we got back in the van and were bored. I wanted to go to Bachelors Grove which is one of the creepiest most haunted cemetaries in the world but 1. we didn't kno the directions and 2. Dena was bein a pussy. So we found a non gated Cemetary and were in there. It was sooooooo fuckin Creepy. Like we all kept Jumpin n liek......i'm too lazy to go into detail but yeah....I saw Black shadows and hauled ass and everyone followed! LOL. So then liek we parked at Lan Oak and talked n stuff it was great. Ridge is kinda cute but he has a gf....and I have a "Fiancee" LOL hehehe...Anyways we went to Highland and finally met up with Nate and his gay friend Dave and they were both fuckin plastered so we were gonna go to Around the Clock but dave kept touchin Katie and she flipped so we took off and it was like 1:30 when we got back hehe. I was soooooooo fuckin dead I slept like a babi. Man like I dunno whats goin on....But like I have all these ideas goin on in my head. The More i think about Nick. the More sure I am he's "The One" I mean...I dunno....It's just so hard but I am gettin such clear images. 24-7......Nick Syndrome! LOL. Honestly love him more then anythin........Wish i could put into words how I feel....but I can't.......Except....True Love. wellz i'm babysittin n all that gay stuff OMFG Mike was like put ur cam on yesterday and liek I was fuckin around in my bra as usual. And then liek.....Him and his cuzzin were both masterbatin and it was like ugh....nasty......... One week left till Seattle. I dont wanna go!!!!! I cant talk to Nicky for 4 days! I'm gonna die......It's fuckin torture. And liek everyone keeps askin....what do ya want for ya b-day....NOTHING! gah....fuckers. I'm not a very Materialistic person....would rather have memories then things. But ya kno....ppl just think that things make u happy. No. Friends Make you happy. thinkin about that time ya got wasted and made the biggest ass of yaself makes ya happy. Cuz its funny and you'll alwayz have those memories for ever. Ya kno? Maybe it's just me ya kno. I don't need a cell phone to make me happy or the "Latest clothes fashion" eh fuck it. Best to just be yaself. All I need to be happy is Mah Nicky and my so called friends. Anyways tho....Like my new Lay out? I'm still workin on it. Gotta clean my room since Nick it out with his mates i dont have an excuse not to clean....heh Damn you Nick....Still love ya tho :P RaZoR wHoRe