The Depression and suicidal ideation has yet to subside...If anything it's getting worse.... It's been a restless 2 days.... I miss Scott...Can't wait till his happy ass gets up. Totally love him to death... I guess I'm a lil behind in my enteries....letz see I'm failing math...nothing new... ummm Tuesday Sara dumped Milk on Ashley for no reason. Really pissed me off. she had no buisness doing that..but who am I? rite. Tuesday was pretty quiet after that....there was a black out tho for a half hour...Kinda sucked. Wished the lights woulda stayed off the entire day...hehe Today sucked ass. Had CCD retreat. Was to fucking boring. We had to listen to this dude go on and on and on about god... Fucking Pro lifers! He's like we all have a purpose...blah blah blah...He can seriously go fuck himself. I have power over my own destiny Dammit! Fucking pisses me off when people preach like that....Fuckers... Well I haven't cut myself in like 2days. I have 2 infected cuts and damn do they hurt like a bitch. I really dunno what else to type....Except I miss Scott! goddamn panzy...can't help but get attatched.