slowly day by day I destroy a little bit of myself. Eventually there will be nothing left for me here and I will have to leave this world insearch of the things i have destroyed. Well it's been a rather depressing few days. I stayed last night at my Grandma's. It really sucked. She wouldn't let me touch any of her stuff. I touched her cell and she went nuts.....old ppl grrr.... Well I almost fucked up the best thing I have going. I was talkin to Scott yesterday and He said I love you and i called him a liar. Don't ask me why I did, Just reflex hell if i kno. And I guess he deleted me off his buddy lists cuz like yeah this morning he sent me 3 requests for me to be added back on to his list. Go figure. We're talking now but it's like ummm.....I just don't feel like talking. I feel like our relationship has regressed. It's like we're back at square one. He doesn't really wanna call anymore, I don't blame him. I have mic but I just dont feel like talking to anyone if ya kno what I mean. Who knows.... Tomorrow is Freshman picture day. I wanna wear my Eagles T and my mom is like no. I'm like YES dammit!!!! I have to fuckin carry that pic with me on my id for a year I should be able to choose what I want to wear...damn bitch Her and my dad are fighting again. Nothing unusual. She has Lez club wednesday so we all have to leave the house...It's a bunch of BS....grrr. I hate parents....