Hiya Diary it's me, long time no type. It's been such a busy week with Thanksgivin' rite 'round the corner and the seattle trip comin up. Skool is alright, I actually understand what we're doing in Math. I got my Saint report turned in for CCD, i did Dymphna, Patronness of Mental Illness. Speaking of that I think i've lost my positive attitude. I keep tryin to hold on to it because I don't want to be depressed again. I hated it when I had to wear a fake smile and act like life as good when it was hell. This Summer I was doin' so good, feelin good, lookin good. And Now I can just feel things changin. I'm like numb at this moment. I can't feel anything, except for maybe a lil violated and a lil pissed off. Like today in Industrial arts aka Shop, Charles harrassed me every chance he got. I was just sittin on my desk and he sat on the desk in front of me and was like Oh I'd love to fuck you from behind. Now I dunno where the fuck that came from. Then like when I was in the shop at my locker since I have a bottom locker I have to crouch down in order to open it well he came and stood next to me and pushed me into his dick! I was so pissed off and he acted like it was no big deal. I mean I use to be able to tolerate it but I've told him to stop and he just ignores me. I dunno what else to do. I could tell Mrs. Germany but I can't have her handeling everything that goes wrong. She's not always going to be there to tell ppl off for me. And ha if I told the principal.....lets not even go there. last time I filed sexual harrassment against some one The dude got 2 suspension days for 6 accounts of sexual harrassment so basically all he got was a nice vacation from skool. ya believe that shit! So Like at this moment I am totally lost. I am seriously starting to hate guys. Most are like Low life Horn dog small dicked perverted freaks. I kno there are a few good dudes out there that are sweet and nice, but not many their startin to become a dyin breed. Well lets see I can't remeber what else I wanted to add in here. Oh well I'll think of it later. Peace N Love AmyMarie