well.....today has been different Just talked to Mander. She's depressed..... I feel so fucking bad. She started cutting and she got the idea from me. So Guilty. Dammit!!!!!!! Why the fuck do I do this. She's the 4th person to start cutting since We've met. Aaron used to cut, Ashley....Sara....and Now Mander. i feel so bad for her. Mike is bein a total Dick and he's the reason she's cutting. And I told her maybe they should take a break. but she said she'd kill herself. Bad Situation. I miss her. If only we had more heart to heart talks this summer instead of getting wasted together. I miss her. Nick and I talked for hours today. I Love chatting with him. He's just so sweet.... Feels so rite ya kno? Everytime he says Marry me.....It's Like YES!!!! Dammit! lol. Would love to wake up in the morning with his arms around me. Layin close listening to his heart beat. Was funnii.....we were playin pool and I alwyz lose....so yeah.....lost the bra and shirt...lol....distracted him but he still won....I reallii suck at yahoo games OMFG the greatest thing happened....Okay My mom has been on my ass all day "You eat to fucking much" I'm a teenager dammit...I can eat! bitch....So anyways she went off on my dad....And they were at it all day. Finally he got so pissed. He whipped a potato at her and smacked her rite in the face!!!!!! I'm like WOOOOHOOOO Score for the good team!!!!!!!!!! LOL I hate that bitch. ooooo and then like Friday. Mrs. Kelly moved Kristen so she doesn't sit behind me. Pissed me off so fucking bad. Now I have no one to talk to in Bio. and that is the longest class of the day. Bobby talks to himself which irritates the fuck out of me. And he sits two seats behind me. and then Sean sits in front of me and he YELLS not TALKS to Bobby and it's like GODDAMMIT! In German we got our asses rang out cuz half the football and Hockey teams are in my class so they were makin smart ass comments.....so yeah we got majorly bitched at....... Anyways tho.......I reallii don't have much to say rite now. Just still upset over Mander's situation. So wish she was still up here. Sucks that she lives in AL.... RaZoR wHoRe "...yesterday....All My problems seemed so far away.....Now it looks as though there here to stay....."