Allo Today wasn't to bad, I was so nervous about Mr. K noticing my cuts, so I kept my Toe socks up to my Knees which was really hard cuz they aint meant to be worn dat high, but it worked none the less. Didn't even have Anxiety probs till around 6th hour. yesterday My Anxiety probs were so bad, that I was shaking and couldn't write anything at all cuz I couldn't keep my hand straight, I got to go home early, yesterday so It wasn't that bad. Then today when Sara and I were walking home, we took the short cut behind the Laundry mat and some dude left out a 6pack of Coronas, I dared Sara to take it and she did, So we came back to my house popped some bottles open and drank to our hearts content while listening to Silly Love songs and Live and Let die. Good times, Good times. Sara was a little Tipsy when she left, She was startin to slur her words and have probs walkin. I have a high Tolerance for liqour since technically both my parents are Alcholics, dat and I drink every now and then when they aren't home. I was fine, did get a little buzz my parents didn't notice. I did take a nice long nap tho....lol. Mike called and harrassed me for awhile, den I curled back up and fell asleep. Dats just today, Like Yesterday I was talking to skitzy, and turns out he was more depressed then me. I felt really bad for not noticing sooner. I was too busy wallowing in my own pain to notice his. It kinda reminded me of old times, I sat and listened to him about all his troubles, like he does with me. He showed me this poem that he wrote, I'll share it with ya'll....he'd kill me if he saw this, What I did hear, with mind and ear. Was not just fear, and not one tear. It is now clear, no longer near. Good-bye world. My end is here. Peace out. Scott Kinda sounds like a suicide letter poem type thing. he was telling me bout his options, one was about killing himself with a scraper blade. Suicide has never scared me, Because I, Myself have looked it straight in the eyes, and danced with death. I am still here (Sadly), I've written suicide notes, Swallowed pills, hung out in dangerous parts of town. Hoping something would happen and none of the consequences have ever scared me. But for once I actually am Afraid, Afraid of loosing Scott to the one thing that I have been able to beat so far. I Love him so much, No matter what he has always been there when I've needed him. If he ever did commit suicide, i wouldn't be far behind. Really couldn't imagine life with out him. I wish i could just take away all his problems, worries, fears, and depression so He'd be happy. He's sounding more cheerful today which i'm Thankful for. oooo Yesterday on emode I was taking tests and they had one that ya could make about yaself and send to ya friends, so I did, and it had some weird ass Questions. I sent it to Daniel, Ken and Scott. Ken claims he knows everything about me, He got like 11 out of 20 rite which is 55%. Skitzy got a 100%! Here's Skitzy's Answers w/ the questions. I can't believe he got them all right! All the right answers are marked with ---- JScott's Answer Key (20 Correct) 1. What's my sign? Aries Libra----- Capricorn Pisces 2. If I could eat one thing for the rest of my life, it would be: Candy Dominoes Pizza ---- Animal Krackers Carrots 3. What's my favorite drink? Diet Coke ----- Pepsi Blue Lime Diet Coke Lemon Diet Coke 4. Which celebrity would I most like to meet? Johnny Depp Josh Hartnett Julia Roberts Randy Meisner----- 5. My favorite movies are _________ Dramas Comedies Gorey ----- Muder Mysteries 6. My favorite childhood game was: Kick the Can ---- Ditch Molly Barbies BSB Trivia 7. My favorite season is: Spring Summer Fall ----- Winter 8. My favorite Plant is: Morning Glory Shroom Tulips Blue Roses ----- 9. My favorite color is _________ Blue ----- Crimson Black Purple 10. Who's my favorite actor? Johnny Depp ----- Ben Stiller Tom Hanks Robert De Niro 11. Who's my favorite actress? Cate Blanchett Julia Roberts ----- Cameron Diaz Sandra Bullock 12. What's my favorite sports team? Texans Cubs ---- Bears Cowboys 13. My favorite ice cream flavor is: Cookie Dough----- Sherbert Swirl Rocky Road 14. Do I sometimes pee with the door open? Never When no one's looking Sure, it's a pee country ----- 15. Would I rather be too hot or too cold? Too hot ---- Too cold 16. What city was I born in? Chicago East Chicago South ---- Chicago North Chicago West 17. Which "bizarre" job would I like to try for a day? Grave Digger Stripper Hooker Singing Telegram ---- 18. Who's my favorite band of the moment? The Eagles ----- Exile Dobie Gray James Gang 19. Would I rather sing in the shower or car? Shower Car both ------ 20. I secretly want to be a/an ________ when I grow up. Nudist Brown Noser Song Writer Guitarist for a band ---- Awesome eh? I was doing one of those astrology match thingys. Here's what it says about Scott and me When Virgo and Libra join together in a love match, it can be like puting two puzzle pieces together. Each locks into the other and sits comfortably in place. Both Signs seek security in partnership, and they share a love of beauty and culture. They can work together efficiently and smoothly because they desire similar rewards. The Virgo-Libra relationship may trickle along in the beginning, but it will rev up once both partners grow to respect one another. Virgo and Libra both appreciate superficial pleasures, and they often enjoy collecting bone china, art or photographs. They also enjoy the theater and all forms of art. Practicality and pleasure are important to both Signs, and they compliment one another in many ways. Virgo appreciates Libra's charm and diplomacy, and Libra can even things out when Virgo doesn't get their way. Libra appreciates the Virgo love of order and the tangible rewards that come with it. Additionally, Libra and Virgo are willing and able to see the different sides of an argument, and together they make decisions only after examining the facts. The Planet Mercury rules Virgo and Libra is ruled by the Planet Venus. Virgo is an excellent communicator, analyst and thinker. These partners share a love of good, honest conversation and exquisite taste. Libra, especially, is about balance, and both partners share pleasing personalities and a strong desire for balance. Together, they bring culture and beauty to the world around them. Also due to Venus's influence, Libra can be lazy, and both partners may be seen as snobs: Virgo with their high expectations and Libra guilty of an intellectual superiority complex. Virgo is an Earth Sign and Libra is an Air Sign. Libra goes about theorizing on many different subjects, while Virgo is more pragmatic. Virgo asks, "how will this help me achieve my goals in life?" while Libra simply focuses on whatever occurs to them, regardless of how useful it is. Sometimes each partner may find it difficult to understand where the other is coming from. Conflicts can arise in this relationship if Virgo seems too particular or Libra seems manipulative. Both partners need to realize that they view the world through different filters. Virgo is a Mutable Sign and Libra is a Cardinal Sign. In this relationship, Libra will steer their direction. Virgo is complacent and easy-going, and Libra can be a gentle, guiding force without crossing the line into domination. Libra's indecision may irritate Virgo, but Libra is skilled at seeing all sides of a problem, and is often able to sympathize with Virgo's decisions. If Libra can be the initiator in the relationship, Virgo is adaptable enough to keep their projects going. What's the best aspect of the Virgo-Libra relationship? It's their shared love of structure and art. Aesthetics are important to both partners, and they share a love of the finer things in life. Their similar tastes and loves make theirs a relationship of great balance Sounds like we were meant to be doesn't it? Well newyz i'm gettin tired so I'm goin to bed... Leave me some comments! lol *Hugs* *Peace*N*Luv* JAM