wellz....I'm still alive ^_^ been thinkin about killin' myself all day....I dunno why just am realli depressed.....I cut myself yesterday just a few measly cutz.....Tonight i'm sure i'll add more to my collection.... This mornin my dad made me try to register for High skool......but today was express...so I gotta walk up there tomorrow and register...Luck me <-_-> I don't wanna!!!! lol... Man Bob is one obessed mother fucker! he wanted to meet today but I'm liek my cuzins are goin back home......so like yeah...He might ditch work tomorrow....and we can have sum fun.....hehe....He told me today he wanted to fuck me...I'm like alright sweet. I think He's gettin a little too clingy tho. he's like I'm addicted to you.........It's like Hun this ain't gonna be long Term!....I mean like 2 3yrs no way.....Maybe a year or so.....I dunno....I'm not ready for another long term relationship.... I've been thinkin a lot about Scott Lately.....I realli miss him. and I kno I alwyz love him. Guess that's why it hurts so bad is I won't let go. I can't......Dunno I'm confused.....Scott if ur readin this....U little bastard Call me! wellz i'm on a new diet.....Not eatin anything majorly fattening.....I wanna become a pole dancer someday.....3 yrs to make myself look good....eh.....I think it's possible *_*....lol......Newyz....I gottsa get ready for bed...I'm gettin up at 8am.....and then like callin Bob to see what we're doin. Gawd that sounds so weird "We" I'm nutz....lol