No feeling.....Nothing.... well letz see, this morning my dad dragged my ass out of bed at 9:30am sayin I was gonna be late for ccd, he told me it was like 10:30, My class is at 10:45, So I shoved a donut down my throat as I'm getting ready to take a shower, then I noticed it was only 9:30, so yeah I was pissed. Den after a torturous ccd class, My parents came to pick me up, Which was kinda weird havin all 4 of us in the van, It doesn't happen often. So like we're 3miles away from home, and they're argueing about the Income Tax and Katie's skool tution which is due Next week. One second I'm listening to The Eagles on my cd player, the next second I'm smashed up against the back of the front seat. My sister flew forward too since neither of us wear's Seatbelts. My mom stopped the car and Told my dad to get the fuck out, that he could walk home. So he actually did get out and start walkin. It was kinda amusing. He called a friend to come get him, den he dropped by the house and grabbed the Jeep, We didn't hear from him till like 8pm. Now He's passed out down stairs. No doubt from being drunk. So yeah that was kinda interestin. Then I called Sara today to explain why I wasn't at Kristen's party and Sara was like Oh I'm waiting for a friend to call. I'll call ya back in an hour. Never did hear from her. She's really pissed me off lately. Fuck her I ain't going to her sleep over. She can kiss my ass as far as I'm concerned. I am so sick of people these days. Ya kno I sit and think, damn I wish I had more friends, or Damn I wish I were more out going. Well FUCK THAT! I am sick of wishing I were some one else. I am Proud to be who I am, So what I'm Fucked up and a Cynical Jaded suicidal. I Like who i am. I Love the Stories and Poems I write. I'm no longer ashamed of writing suicide poems and hiding them. Fuck that shit I can do what I want, I am expressing myself so what if I scare people, that's there own goddamn problem. I don't need a lot of friends. I have Scott, He's always been there for me, He accepts me for who I am. That's the kind of person I want to know. But like yeah, I'm in a Bitchy Mood. So yeah Fuck Everyone