Is it hard to understand? Physically I don't care. Have fun, play around. Its only our bodies. What hurts is emotional affairs. "Do as you will as long as you love me". Its the difference that matters. Physical is physical, emotional is emotional, but they are seperate. When it isn't is when the pain begins. We share our bodies AND out hearts. That is what makes us special. What makes Us significant. When you do the same with another we are no longer special. I'm no longer needed or important or any different than any other affair. What can I give you that she can't? What do I have that she doesn't? Emotional affairs completely eliminate my significance. I'm tired. Things begin to change, I think they're progressing, then suddenly its all back to the beginning. Do I not make sense? I give up. I guess it doesn't really matter anyway. It'll all be over soon. I'll be alone again. She'll follow him like she always does. I'll be left behind. Whatever. Leave. You'll have your friends, your family, your money. You'll have her. What did you ever need me for? Why should I care. I was alone when it started, it should never have happened, I'll be alone again as I should have been anyway. Apathy. Gods I miss it.