Blargh. Talked to alot of people... didn't talk to alot as well. Missing them. A friend died a little over a week ago. First funeral I ever went to. Awkward. And I saw... someone. Very important to me. Don't know how to feel. Lots of old emotions. Lots more confusing things said. I started to feel 'alive' again. Like my old self... but when I resumed my life... it faded. I want to be me again... but I dunno... if it means I have to give up what i have now..? *sigh* College. I'm gonna go to college. Maybe I won't get to have either lives. Maybe I will. Who knows? I'm alive... thats good. I think. I'll wite agian later...