I think one of my family's cats is dying... she won't really move and when she does its more stumbling and falling... she won't close her eyes or blink... its awful... she won't eat or drink... I'm staying over at my parents house tonight... I don't know if she'll make it to the morning... *sigh* We've had her for around 16 years... ...I really need a friend... I (hopefully) will be seeing my best friend on Saturday... but god I could use someone to just talk to... I'm seeing a psychologist, and I guess that should help, but thats only for an hour every week... not really enough time for an untalkative person to get talking and actually say what she needs to. And I would love to talk to my husband about stuff... he -wants- to ne here for me... but some of girl talk will always be about their significant other, so I can't.... I guess...I've just had a lot on my mind lately... and normally... well I guess in the past at least I've had... *sigh* -friends-. And now I don't really feel close enough to anyone to just go talk to them. I've been so secluded in my own little world for so long that it just doesn't feel right to go dumping on some one I haven't seen or spoken to in forever. =( It sux. I hope I can make it to Saturday... and I hope I actually get to go hang out... and I hope we haven't grown so far apart that I don't want to talk to her... or feel guilty... or stupid... *sigh* ....I just need someone to talk to... someone to call when I need a friend.... damnit... I'm still such a teenager... What do adults do in the middle of the night when they need a shoulder or an ear? ...I feel so alone sometimes... maybe thats why there are so many alcoholics....