"I've been so alone for so long Forgotten by the world Forgotten to myself Your effervescent eyes have awakened me And brushed the dust away But I knew you'd never stay So I memorized the color of your eyes As I lost myself inside you And I memorized the way our legs entwined As I drifted off beside you I miss God I miss Waking up beside you At night I cling to you, I'm so afraid Afraid the day will come And I'll wake and find you gone But you promised that you'd not abandon me And kissed my fears away But I woke up to that day But I had memorized the way our eyes would meet Reflected in the bathroom mirror And I memorized your naked silhouette As you slowly brushed your hair I miss God I miss Waking up beside you I've been so alone for so long I forgot how much it hurts To wake up so alone But I memorized how warm your body felt As you lay half asleep beside me And I memorized the way the sunlight Filled the room and played upon your body I miss God I miss Waking up beside you " Waking up in his empty bed, not completely conscious, our stuff half packed... I would have cried if I'd had time to. But I was late. I'll have to go back and finish tonight. I can't wait till I see him tomorrow. Still, I feel so cold. Since he left everthing's been so different. Its as if my past rose from its grave and started tap dancing on my head. Everyone I haven't spoken with or seen in so long started calling me, I've been reliving so much in my dreams... I miss the comfort of his company. I miss the feeling of companionship. I guess it's good to spend time apart, but it's so difficult when it feels like the whole world is pounding on my door and all I want is to spend a few quiet hours with him. Oh well. I have to learn to do both; face the world and keep my lover. Beginning today, that's just what I intend to do.