Well, of course I got to my appointment and couldn't see anyone because, surprise sursprise!, they don't actually take my insurance even though they're listed on my insurance company's provider list. So here I am 14 weeks pregnant and still haven't seen anyone. At t his rate the first time I see a doctor is when I go into labor! Appearantly no one accepts my insurance or if they do they aren't accepting new patients. Anyway, aside from all that crap, everything sux. Goat and I got in a fist fight yesterday when I started packing my stuff. It was kind of scary, but nothing really happened. I mean, no one got hurt or anything. I have to find a place to live now. I have no idea what I'm going to do. I need a job but who's gonna hire me when I'll only be able to work a couple months? And what will I do for cash after that? I need to get my life in order but I only have a few months to do it and I'm really scared. On top of that I have to do it all alone. I really don't have any friends anymore and I can only ask my parents for so much. I should probably try to find some support group or community or some sh*t but it appears Missouri is severely lacking in everything useful when it comes to having children. And its pretty much impossible if you're a jobless single teen. So yeah, things are pretty much going from bad to worse as usual. Not that anyone cares, nor should they. But still, its hard to deal with when I swear there was a time when I could have done this... I don't know what happened to me and sadly, I don't think I have the time to figure it out.