I want to hurt. I want to inflict pain on everything around me. I want to impose my emotions on everything I touch and see until I infect -everything- with these unbearable feelings of anger and frustration and pain raging inside me. I want to break anything I can get my hands on until all that surrounds me is rubble and ash, blood and blones. To kill. To destroy. To hurt. But I have to bottle it up. Shove it down as I have had to my whole life. All I can do is shake and grind my teeth. It'll pass. It has to. Till then I must be cold. Calm. It has to go away sometime....