Well... Winter slept through the night. Kinda. I suppose I didn't sleep till 4am-ish... but she slept until 7:30, and then again until 11, so it was wonderful. Of course that meant she was awake all afternoon... but whatever. It wasn't that bad. She was a bit fussy and demanded to be carred around for a little while, but she's asleep now and we're doing okay. I'm a little stressed/disappointed about something, but I'll spare you the details. We're both fine and I guess that's all that matters. As for the situation I've been posting about... I'm calmer now. I don't feel like boiling myself alive anymore... which I suppose is an improvement. She finally emailed me back yesterday... and I snapped at her.. and we kept emailing... and then we talked over Yahoo IM.... and then she came over.... I'm still upset about the whole situation, but I've bled off the poison for now and I'm too tired to be angry anymore. *sigh* Goat and her also talked when he got home from work... and they yelled... but I stayed out of it and actually ended up falling asleep on the couch. When I woke up she was still here.... Funny... she wouldn't stay over when we were suppsedly together, but after she leaves us... well, I never said she was easy to understand. *sigh* Anyway... the night was... pleasant enough. Awkward...in an enjoyable sort of way. We watched The Emperor's New Groove, and then listened to music and played with Adobe Photoshop until Goat came home. We didn't really talk about it. Just... were in eachother's company. She says she's still in love with me. ...What am I supposed to say?... she still left... *sigh* Goat wants us to talk about whatever they talked about... I think he wants me to try and talk her into coming back... I don't want to, though. I'm tired. As I told Goat, "If she's going to come to us, she will... and if not... I'd rather not have put more of myself on the chopping block. So, unless she someday comes back and wants to be with us, and ONLY us, without any inhibitions or unfinished business or ties... I'm done". And I mean it. I really hurt.... and I'm not gonna hope again. Blah.... anyway... I'm tired.