UGH! Why does everything I touch EXPLODE!? I got my friken car back yesterday, lotta good THAT did me. They put a new muffler on it so it's quiet now, but they said the catalytic converter's fine. AKA: Your car still runs like crap. I'm gonna have to take it BACK to the shop and tell them they were WRONG. So, FIX THE DAMN THING. That is, if it'll even make it to the shop. GRRR! The damn thing died on me about 8 times yesterday, IN THE MIDDLE OF TRAFFIC! IN THE WORST PART OF TOWN! ....*sigh* And it ran so WELL when I first got it. Now its falling apart and one knows why or even really whats wrong with it. Anyway... I went and saw Strife yesterday. Damn... His girlfriend and him split a few days ago and he's been down. I'm not really sure what I -should- feel, or do, as he's my ex, but I wanted him to feel better. I hate seeing him upset. It's been like that for years, gonna be a hard habit to break. *sigh* I wish people didn't get so awkward when a relationship ends. Its been over a year. God... more than two years.... shouldn't the awkward phase be over with? But he still doesn't know how to act towards me. I guess he's afraid if he let's his guard down he might do something dumb, or feel wrong, or... I don't know. I love him, I always will, but I know I'm not gonna be with him ever again. I just want to be his friend. I don't want to be a potential wound. Ugh... anyway.... I made him laugh, I went home, he said thanx, maybe we'll hang out again someday. End of story. *sigh* I hate endings. They're unatural. Nothing ever really ends, things just keep going, indefinately. Or maybe its just me.