OKay... so we didn't get to bring her home. The jaundice got worse, not better. BUT, (please, GOD) we SHOULD get her in about.... 5-ish hours. Hopefully. She's not yellow anymore. And when she got worse they put her under a lamp all day which brought the jaundice down. She spent all of yesterday under the lamp as well, and if it went down as much as the day before we get to bring her home. Yay! :) My sleeping schedule is totally f*cked up, but I think thats probably a good thing. I will be needing to be awake for her... Sooo... yeah. I'm at my parents because the hospital booted me out. I was doing fine and for some reason everyone in town went into labor so they needed the room. I had to leave Winter at the hospotal, but thats alright. As I said, hopefully we get to bring her home. I'm recouperating amazingly well, and fast. I'm still q bit sore, but I can feel the healing already, and my belly is almost back to normal. Its really quite astonishing. Now... my chest hurts like the dickens, but thats expected. My milk came in and I'm all swollen and its awful... but at least that means the baby gets fed. :) And it should go away (the rediculous swelling, not the milk) in a couple days. Till then I'll just suffer. ;) Winter is absolutely amazing. She's so good natured and well behaved... and she's so developed already! She's holding her head up and can almost roll over and she wants to put everything in her mouth... *lol* She's so cute, too! I love her soo much... *sigh* Anyway... Enough about baby. She's great and all, but I actually do have other things to think/talk about. Crazy, huh? Not that I don't LIKE thinking/talking about her, but I'm sure YOU don't want to hear that much. ;þ So... I read some poetry today. It was really... touching. :) At first I wasn't sure what to think because I didn't know (for certain) who it was all written about. It was really good... and then I found out it was about me. *blush* I had kinda been hoping... :) The author has no faith in her ability to write, but she really should. She's an amazing person... though I wish she could find a way to belive that. She was there at the birth of my child, helping me... and some of the things she said to me tonight... *sigh* She really is amazing. And I care for her soooo much.... It's.... well, I don't want to say much more. I love her. I hope she knows that. REALLY knows it. And I wish I could make things better for her. The way she feels for me is really messing with her, and causing a lot of unneeded stress... Not that I'm the only thing, but still... She tries to shoulder the world and refuses to believe that it could be too much for her. :) NO one can take on that much. But alas... she's stubborn as an ox. *lol* But, like I said, I love her. Hm... my life is suddenly so full of love. SO much love for the baby... so much FROM the baby.... Goat and I are even more in love than before... love for and from Her.... Just love, love, love, everywhere! Its kinda nice. :) And I think I might be... happy. Everything isn't PERFECT... but still. I'm relatively happy. Now, I'd better go before everything comes crashing down around my ears. ;)