Well.. that was... um... INTERESTING. My face is all sore now cuz I kept smiling and blushing... Then again, it was sore before from getting hit with a Torani bottle. (Its a glass bottle, alot like a wine bottle, but with more corners and full of coffee flavoring, not alcohol) It was an accident! But yeah, my face is definately MORE sore from all that smiling and blushing. Now, WHY I was smiling (and blushing) enough to make my cheeks fall off, I'm not gonna say yet. In fact I may not say at all. :þ I just was. So THERE. Anyway... what I was intending to write before all that happened was this: Should I take advice from a cookie? I just got back from dinner with my mother and I'm in a quandary. We went out for Chinese. It was tasty, and of course we got fortune cookies. Now I have this personal superstition of sorts where I have to eat the whole cookie before looking at the fortune so it will actually be for ME. Its an odd habit, I know. Shut up. But anyway, we were talking and enjoying ourselves and I finally realized I had finished the cookie and had been sitting there just holding this fortune for like ten minutes. So I read it. "Stop searching forever, happiness is just next to you." Now normally I'd just put it in my collection and move on. But I HAVE been questioning my relationship A LOT lately, so I thought it was sort of ironic. A cookie was telling me to shut up and be happy with what I have. I've been sitting here wondering if I should stay, or go, or WHATEVER and this sweet little pastry says STAY. (Which, by the way, is one of my favorite songs) So, should I take this as a sign, or just go on doubting and worrying and wondering? Silly question, huh? But still, I ask it. :þ Anyway, Goat will be really happy tonight. Well, maybe not as happy as he would be if things were just a TEENY TINY bit different, but he should be happy none the less. I, on the other hand, am happy AND nervous. Things are new and interesting and exciting! BUT... they're new and interesting and exciting. *lol* And I'm about to pop out a baby! I'm not supposed to be doing anything like this! This is for young, care free, crazy people! Or old, carefree, crazy people! Not new mothers. :) Still, I'm smiling. And maybe this will be good. It doesn't feel BAD. And so far, it's made people happy... No, I won't explain. I don't feel like letting anyone know the details yet. Maybe tomorrow. Maybe never. I definately don't know how to explain it to some people... and the rest of you will probably tell me I'm being dumb. And a very select few people might tell me "congratulations and good luck". Knowing that is enough for now. I'd like to give this a bit before I jump head first into Crazyville.