Well... I'm not in the hostpital anymore. I really wasn't there for that long anyway but it was still scary. I hate IVs. They hurt... Damn my kidneys!! Why can't my body just function properly for a change? I want OFF all these pills. I want a steady friggen life! But I am feeling better... We aren't fighting as much anymore... and we're together, REALLY together, now. I'm trying hard to find a job so he can quit... he's so tired all the time... I miss having him around... But December is only 4 months away.... I'm not sure if I'm ready yet... The baby and the wedding are so close... ugh. I need my family back. The three people I swore meant most to me in the whole world... they still do. And I haven't seen any of them in weeks. Some of them months. God, I ache. I'm so scared and I have no one to turn to. But at least that kidney infection is going away...