Well... no lottery winnings for me. :) But as far as I can tell, not for anyone else either. ...I'm feeling much better now. *weak smile* I really do love him. I wish I could express that. Yes, he is at the center of most of my rants, but that is because I love him so much. He is so important to me that not only is he the center of my happiness but my saddness involves him as well. I'm feeling rather ill tonight, physically I feel like trash, but emotionally I feel extremely better. I wish he woudl stop asking me that question. I don't want to think about it until it's real. Don't ask a person a question if you know they're not ready to answer. *sigh* Damnit, Goat. I love you more than I've ever loved anyone before... Seriously. I wish you knew. Stay with me always....