Help... Anyone...

by phoenyx
I think I want to dissappear. (My throat is KILLING me!) Goat and I have been getting into little tiffs. He's miserable at work (big surprise), and when he's home he's miserable because I don't do enough house work. Or in his words, any. You know, except wipe his daughter ass, feed her, bathe her, and comfort her. Even when he's home. He complains when I ask if he can watch her. *sigh* I knew all this was gonna happen... and worse, I get that urge to break up with him... I know its not that simple anymore. We're married. We have a baby... I -do- love him... I'm just not happy. He isn't the only miserable one. Maybe I'm being unfair. He does have to work. And I don't do much around the house. And he isn't that bad... he's good even... but geezus he has a way of making me feel like shit. Immature STUPID shit. And I -hate- that. I hate feeling belittled. And inadequet. And useless. I really just want to run away and that scares the shit outta me.... I know I can't... now more then ever... I'm not up to this. I'm a good mother, but I'm a terrible wife. I'm tired, I'm scared, I feel trapped and dumb and like a horrible person.... and I don't have anyone to turn to. No one can help and no one can really understand unless they've been here, and I don't know anyone who has. I'm the only one of my friend's who has a baby, the only one who's married.... and I'm a recluse to boot. I'm scared of everything, I follow through on nothing, and the things I think make me a horrible person. And I have this terrible fear of dropping everything and running away... I don't think it'll happen.. I don't want to do it.... but what if I snap? I love them both so much.... why am I so... lost? Please, someone, help me....
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I dont know if you'd even want help from me anymore, but i am right here for you, my darling. You and I will do theatre and get you back into the wrld
[Anonymous]
Sorry.. got cut off..
for what is worth, you are both great people who feel trapped in the current situation. you have for some time now. You two also, have communication issues. When he asks you questions, you get short with him so he'll stop prying, and he gets upset that he has to ask you at all. That usually snaps him into debate defensive mode, and pushes you farther from talking to him. You two both realize that you have problems, but ...
you both are so tired from baby and job that you both just except things to work out, and they won't. Relationships take work, some more than others. Since you both are so young and have now been put into an extremely adult situation, it can be hard to cope with. This again means it'll take extra work. You both love eachother, you BOTH just need to try a lot harder than you are.i really hope this didn't offend you in any way i love you both
C
you are in a hard spot. But, you both need to respect what eachother do, hes working and tired, and your mothering, and equally tired. You need to have more respect and compassion for eachother. I partly know how you feel, cause I am also young and married, but we do not have children. But we go though our fair share of "silly tiffs!" It doesnt mean either one of you are bad husbands and wifes though! Youre still figuring it all out...