Wow... it amazing how quickly things change. I thought I'd left a part of me far behind... and yet it always seems to come back. With a vengance. I've been feeling... odd... lately. Memories have been coming back, odd thoughts errupting into my placid moments of peace... I've been haunted by dreams I haven't seen the like of in years. And it makes me miss a certain time in my life... certain people I once loved... and hated. All at once. And yet, I find myself hurting from their absence in my life. Now. When I thought I was finally free of my past. *sigh* I hate myself for hating you... and missing you. I feel as if I'm betraying myself for feeling pain at your absence. My friends, know that I miss you. All of you. No matter how I've felt about you, how I've acted... I'm sorry. I worry about you. I'd liek to see you all again... I hope you know who you are. My brothers and sisters, pack mates, family, friends, whatever you want to call yourself, know I miss you and want to contact you. Please, if you still want me in your lives at all, contact me. I miss having a place in a family, I miss who I was, and I miss caring for you. Do you still miss me? ivyphantom@yahoo.com