I wish I weren't so... well ME. I'm all... emotionally stagnant right now. There's so much going on this month and I can't be like this!! I'm having a baby for christ's sake! *sigh* I'm going to be 19 soon... in like a week. I don't feel older... I guess it just doesn't feel right to be that age. Oh well, time does what it does. Another friend of mine's getting married. Faire is starting back up. I have things to do, people to see, show's to watch... theatre shows, not TV. I also have relationships to figure out and baby stuff to buy, legal stuff to sort through and plans to make. Its all a big jumble. And I really feel no motivation to get any of it done. I guess I'm in one of those moods... where you really need to do stuff but you keep just sitting there, thinking "*sigh* Why bother...?" Its unnerving.Mostly because I have no reason to feel liek this. Except maybe hormones. But I'm not supposed to feel like this til AFTER the baby's born. Postpartum depression and all that. Oh well... I'm not sure where Goat and I stand. We're not doing badly, but... well I'm just not sure. I guess we should be exactly where we were, but it doesn't FEEL like we are. I dunno. Nothing's really changed, but the prospect of change is there.... so things FEEL different. I guess its not BAD. I just don't know where our plans are now... are we still getting married? If yes, then when? And if no... well, what am I supposed to do? Where do we stand? Its just a little confusing. I would elaborate more on what's happening, or not been happening, but I don't want to start any rumors or anything. Too many times people make wrong assumptions based on what I write here. Anyway... I have dishes I should probably try to wash. And then maybe dinner to make. Bleh...