Blah blah blah blah. I’m in an odd mood this morning. Then again, I’ve BEEN in an odd mood for, what, two weeks now? Eh. But I'm STILL in one, so THERE! :þ Anyway... so yeah. Last night was...hm... odd. The boy and I went over to that new friend of mine's house. I need to think of something to call her.... hm, how about Juliete? I mean, I might as well. So yeah, we were over at Juliete's apartment, we were SUPPOSED to go to the Nelson, but it ended up being too late, so we were all just sitting around. We met her boyfriend for the first time last night as well. He's a nice enough guy. But yeah, for some reason, I got all grumpy! I don't know why, just.. *shrug* Sitting there, watching TV, I started feeling really annoyed. I think it started after we stopped goofing off and she was falling asleep. Maybe I was jealous, I dunno... I don't know what to do now. I've never reacted to any situation this way. I've never reacted to THIS kind of situation with these kind of feelings before. Its really quite confusing. *sigh* Anyway, I also brought something up when we got home last night. Didn't get the reaction I was expecting, either. Which is good. So... I haven't been feeling so much like Goat's girlfriend lately as just his friend. No, that isn't a good thing. Though it IS good that we seem to be better friends lately, the lacking of girlfriend-like emotions is still negative. I still love him immensely... just... *sigh* I dunno. Its hard to explain. The "spark" is missing. And sometimes... I guess sometimes I just feel like I'm just here trying to help him be happy. Not that I'M the one to make him happy. I dunno... its not that bad though. We're talking now and things are okay. We really do love each other. Things will work out.