Kelsey decided not to have her bonfire, which sux because I have nothing else better to do right now until Rouroni Kenshin comes on...which is like at ten or eleven. I want to go to bed...but, I can't...Damn! LoL! I feel really bad right now. Part of me wishes that Tim was still with me, even though we have been broken-up for about four months. Yet, the other part of me wants to beat him until he tells me why he dumped me. I mean, I still love him. He seems so depressed lately and it hurts. How can it not hurt? He was the one that I wanted to lose everything with. He was the one that made me feel that I belonged. I loved him. I just don't know how to go on with out him. It isn't easy when you have a lasting memory on one of your diary sites. He called me his Earthlybabe because I made up his whole world and I called him my SmileBaby because he was my smile everyday. I still regret letting him go and I don't know how to tell him. I just want to scream! I want him back! I just want him back!!! I'm Nothing...Forever and Always...Kari