im an emo prince, non-committal as can be

youd be non-committal too if you were flawed like me

Well, more like princess, but either way. I have decided that people can say shit. I don't give a fuck at this point. There is one worry in my life and it's not what they have to say. I have had one outburst on the SC and, in the end, I'm fine as long as I can RP my characters who they are. And you know what? It's kind of hard to be pissed at someone who says, "Hi! How are you?! I hope you're doing okay." I'm deflated, defeated. All I care about right now is making it through this with my fiance by my side with his eyes just on me.

screw that forget about that i dont want to think about anything like that

I'm a loner by choice, not because of people. I find the human race in general to be a disease and every single person is flawed, fucked up and spiteful. I'm not exempt from this. Life is about picking and choosing which people you want to give your fucked up soul to. Honestly, there is maybe four to five people that even deserve it. There are another handful that are worth my time and effort. Most can go the fuck away. I should reach out to those that I know are worth the time and effort. I fucked up big time with one, but I hope that there is still always a chance.

Jolie, you were my best friend. You knew shit about me that no one else has ever gotten to know. You saw my life. I saw yours. Even though we are two different people now, you still mean a lot to me and I do check up on you. I read your Sit constantly and even think about replying, but I know that nothing will ever come from it. I was a horrible friend, but I'm selfish. We both know this. I'm a huge attention whore. But, yet again, we both know this. We're two different people now, but maybe there is still a chance. It's like we're back to eighth grade, my eyes out for blood. Honestly, I keep hoping that we'd get over it and perhaps talk again. I really wish I could see you or even talk to you. I want to give you the world's biggest hug and just say that everything is gunna be okay. I know that it's not, but you know me. I know you do. I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart for everything I put you through. If there was anyone I knew I had, it was you. It's still so hard to grasp that I will never have that again. I love you, Jolie, and I hope everything is okay.

God. I'm just an emotional wreck. X.x I should just get on WoW. lol Peace!

~Kayla