I haven't posted in a long while. I figured I should.

Mike has two part time jobs. Each of them get him more money an hour then me. It's kinda depressing. X.x He works maybe 3 to 4 days a week for a few hours it seems. But hey! It's something. It's kinda nice that I'm only going to be taking care of bills while he takes care of gas and groceries. We've been practically without food for the last few weeks. My last check was ass. I have none of it left and it's Sunday. Le sigh.

Really what's bugging me is the fact that I have Hikari in my head. She's everywhere. I can't help but to think about her when I have time to actually think. I know I want to write. I know I want to let her free again. I just...can't. I donno how to start. I donno what would bring her justice. She's my baby and no matter how fucked up she is, I will always turn to her. I found a great site! I just...bah. I'll try to write something for her tonight when I'm replying to Amanda. Hopefully Kaika will go to the side so I can really bring my baby back to life. She's been dead far too long.

Even though I say I don't care. Even though I say I'm over it. I never will be. Friends once, enemies now. Despite all the bullshit, I cannot hate any of you. Frustrations grow and fade. There will never be enough sorries to wash these scars and fears away from either side. But if I tried, could we leave it at that?

~Kayla