I'm just done. I'm fucking done. I think the fact that he spends less time telling me what's up begging her to talk to him hurts. It fucking hurts a lot. But what the fuck can I do?! I can scream. I can beg. I can take away the internet. I can yell at other people. I can do EVERYTHING and it won't change a fucking thing. I hope you all now fucking see what I was trying to do when I fucked up EVERYTHING between all of you and me. I hope you guys fucking see how much I hate this shit. I hope you fucking see. And yes, I'm turning this into me because you know what...what does it all lead down to?! I'm just not fucking good enough to be the one bothered. So fuck you both. Fuck you both so hard with your petty drama and blaming each other for bullshit. Fuck you both for thinking it's all about you. It's beyond that. I can't get involved if I don't fucking know. I could tell him not to talk to you until I'm fucking black and blue in the face but the reality is, he wants to fucking talk to you. Get over it and just fucking say hi. And as for you, baby, you need to just fucking LEAVE HER ALONE! You know who you should be talking to? ME! ME! Not her! NOT FUCKING HER! But you know what, I'm so fucking used to being on the side that it doesn't fucking matter because in a couple of weeks things will be all hunky dorey and we'll be in the same shit with the same feelings being spread across because some people care too fucking much and someone else doesn't give a shit. Both of you need to fucking shut the FUCK UP and look around. Pick your fucking words carefully because I'm beyond more then pissed. You both are fucking children. One does nothing but cares about herself while the other does nothing but care about the WRONG person. Just. Grow. Up. I'm sick of this shit! I'm tired of yelling!! I'M FUCKING TIRED!!! So fuck you both. Fuck off. It SHOULD be me. It's MY fucking job. But neither one of you make the effort to let me have it. It's called block him on EVERYTHING and it's you not wanting to fucking talk to her about every little piece of shit that goes wrong in your life. THAT'S WHY I'M HERE! THAT IS WHY YOU CHOSE TO WANT TO MARRY ME AND HAVE A FAMILY WITH ME!! I gave you my fucking heart and you've done nothing but waste it the past two years. Just stop before I finally give up. ~Kayla