Yeah, yeah. I'm just fucking done. A couple attempts in a three hour span does not equal to someone ignoring you. I don't really talk on AIM when I'm on WoW. You should know this by now. I don't answer the phone until five to six rings when I'm home alone. And yes, fucktard, I was home alone. If you had contacted me on WoW, I woulda said something. I didn't even notice your AIM message until a few hours later. So, nice way to prove that you're a dick. Mike knows all of this. I was also pissed at you at the time for completely RUINING my birthday for me. Yeah, it was completely ruined. I fucking hate it when you invite people to shit. I didn't want her around. I actually wanted to just play cards and chill with you and Terri all night. But no, no. If I had said no, I would be a complete asshole. Instead, I catered to your needs and it just ended with a slap to the face.

"OH HAY KAYLA! YOUR OPINIONS DON'T MEAN SHIT! ALL THAT ADVICE YOU AND MIKE GAVE ME MEANS NOTHING CAUSE I DON'T CARE! LOLOLOL OH HAY! YOU GUYS ARE ASSHOLES! I'M MAD AT YOU!"

Srsly, that's all I got from that bullshit list. You completely disregard Mike's feelings over your own. We get yours. We get you're lonely. Why do you think we both pushed for you to try with Terri? But no. No. Absolutely not. Is it because she's not your ideal body type?! Is it because she actually has shit in line? I mean, srsly. Do you always have to go for the fucked up girls just so you can feel better about yourself? I mean, when she's sitting there spilling to you that she's miserable and you get frustrated at it, do you feel happy with yourself? And don't fucking lie. Mike has told me shit and I fucking read the texts to Teresa. Oh, she thinks you're an idiot, too, btw. She really doesn't care. It's honestly good for her. She's got a great life and something amazing to look forward to. What do you have? Oh, that's right. You're going to get laid later. That's all that matters.

"BITCH PLEASE! WE CUDDLE AND TALK! THAT'S A RELATIONSHIP! THAT'S REAL RIGHT THERE! I LOVE HER AND I THINK SHE LOVES ME! IT'S MORE THEN JUST SEX! WE HAVE SOMETHING REAL!"

What you have is what I like to call "friends with benefits". You admitted to it. It's where one person doesn't think the other is good enough for a relationship. Cuddling can be apart "friends with benefits". This does include talking about problems. In the long run, the entire experience usually amounts to nothing and one person usually ends up hurt. Usually key there. In real "friends with benefits" relationships, it's just mutual sex and that's the end of it. In special cases of complete fucktardism, the friendship comes complicated with the introduction of sex, but no real relationship truly comes from it. Its normally in the mind and makes the fall out a lot harder. Eventually, you will disregard your real friends because of their concerns and deem them to be "jerks that forbade the relationship".

All joking about your pathetic ass aside, you have no idea how you hurt Mike. I hope you fucking choke on vomit from the next bottle of pills you try to swallow. My annoyance has turned to spite. He wanted you to be there at our wedding. He wanted you to be his best man. I don't think you truly understand how he works. He cares. And saying, "The relationship is a bad idea, srsly, DO NOT do it," is not "forbidding" something from happening. It's saying "Hey shit head, it's a bad idea. If you even give a fuck about yourself, don't do it. You're going to end up hurt." We understand that your self-esteem is practically non-existant, but you also got to understand that these "chances" you ever get with a girl usually end up bad. I mean srsly, look at your rap sheet. How many bad relationships have you had over the last few years?! Look at what happened with Josh!? You completely fucked him over after all he did for you. I guess Mike's no better, huh?

Honestly, I could give a fuck about what you're doing. I'm just upset that it's with someone who has no idea how much of a pathetic piece of shit you are. When it ends, she's going to be just as hurt and you're going to do nothing but guilt it in worse. I feel so fucking bad for her. She has no clue what she is doing. You do. You fucking do and you're willing to potentially hurt her for your own fucking feelings and that is so fucking selfish. You're a horrible fucking human being. And I honestly don't give a fuck at this point if you live or die. You're not even worthy of being called a friend. I don't even think you know how to handle anyone else's feelings but your own misery. You expect everyone else to bend over backwards for you, but you can't do the same for them. We picked your ass up with a shitty car, zero gas and let you eat our food and use our money for food and movies. What did you offer the both of us? Five fucking dollars. Really? Five dollars isn't even enough gas to get your ass home from picking you up. Ten MAYBE and that's barely because we had to bring you to OUR place to do anything.

Oh, and the reason I stopped really doing jack shit with you is because I'm fucking SICK of being called "retarded" and a "cunt" and a "whore" and a "slut". Mike has noticed me being more reserved. A person can only take so much fucking mental abuse before they shut themselves off and that's exactly what I have been doing. "I'M GOING TO GET FIRED!" Well, at least you HAVE a goddamn job. Thanks for making me feel like ass. Srsly. "I HAVE TO PAY RENT!" Oh god! Not that! At least you can PAY stuff. I mean, FUCK, man! You're selfishness is so fucking shocking. It's worse then Douchebag and that's saying a lot. Srsly, he's the scum of the Earth. Grats on beating that!

I would close this with "go to fucking hell you pathetic piece of retarded shit" but I think your self-esteem already does that for you. When the happy feelings fade and you're left with nothing again, go find some new sucker and his girl to give you rides and pay for everything. Of course, I don't think anyone else would be that stupid.

Fuck off.

~Kayla