I hate myself. I hate my life. I hate the people I thought were friends. I just want to go on vacation. I don't want to think about any of it. I don't want to cry anymore. ~Kaylaface♥ Edit It's obvious that you've all picked your side. I wish you all luck. Imma going on vacation to hopefully come back with a feeling of some sort of neutral and maybe a numbness that will get me through everything. I didn't cause all the drama, but somehow, I'm the reason behind it and I take offense to that. I'm beaten, bleeding and crying, but none of you seem to understand what it's like to watch everyone you thought were your friends suddenly turn their back on you. I'm disappointed, but rather annoyed at the same time. I didn't want the situation anymore then you people did. I didn't know that me venting it out on my diary of three years was enough ammo for him to all of a sudden turn you against me in my motion of silence and avoidance. I did the same thing you guys did, but look where it got me. I'm friendless, nearly fianceeless and I want to just be homeless. Fuck. I am homeless. But that's neither here nor there. All of you seem to chuck all of this weight on me making me feel unwanted and the person at fault. All of you. I know what I did and I know what I did at one point was wrong. But ya know, I haven't been two faced. I haven't played both sides. I didn't ignore it. I get banned for one post when you let him post multiple times and nothing happens to him. Mike had told him that he would be banned. I'm pretty sure that Kyle knew that shit. But it doesn't matter, does it? I'm just as much in the wrong now as he is even though I kept my mouth shut. You all are a bunch of fucking hypocritical fucktards and are NO BETTER then him. You're all the fucking same. I can't believe I counted any of you as my friends. Fuck. I can't believe that I was stupid enough to continue on a place that would much rather rip apart the weak then fight the strong. But I am the cause of it all. I'm the reason the site fails. I'm always to blame. I will fully believe this until the day I die. I don't hate him. I don't hold a grudge to him. Garrett will fuck up his own life in his own way. It's you people I fucking hate and the ones I hold a grudge against. You let him rip Mike and me apart, but don't give a shit. Yet whenever he attacks say Katey, you jump up to protect her. It's a perfect little community of back stabbers and betrayers and you all belong together. You're all fucking stupid and care about nothing but yourselves. I was with you. I was actually fucking with you in ignoring it all and hoping that it will pass. It didn't. It fucking didn't. And for once, I didn't press on it. I didn't fucking keep it going. I kept to the background, ranting on when Garrett sat there and trash my man and my supposed best friend. How he all said you were behind him and that it was his site. Well, guess what. He was right. I fucking hate myself and it's mostly because of you fucking people. I hope you fucking feel happy cause I'm not. It doesn't make it easier for me or Mike. I can't give him what he wants. How can I be fucking happy? You all make me sick. You should be disappointed in yourselves, not me or Garrett. We've been doing this shit for years. I actually got smart this time and kept out of it except for a damn diary entry. Fuck you all. I wish you the best of time of your lives before I return. I may or may not retire Hikari to the depths of hell where she and myself belong. I don't know yet. I haven't found a place where we can call home. ~Kaylaface♥