I've been thinking about myself, wondering what I am. I wanted to get together some adjectives to discribe me...but I know that wouldn't work out so well. When loner, fuck up and bitch come into my head, you know it's not good. Listening to Everybody's Fool doesn't help either. *sighs* I'm still tied with that damn song. The lyrics still follow me. I'm not me. I'm a fake. I pretend to be a different person, then I look in the mirror and hate what I see. I'm a hypocrit. I'm a liar. What more must I say? Just so many things that I see in the mirror. *sighs again* I just wish someone could see me. Only four ppl can. One by choice...the other three...broke their way in. They all forced in and how I love them each for it. If ppl could only see that I do have a heart and I do have feelings. I'm not always this bitchy blonde who cuts herself. I'm a quiet brunette who wants attention yet I always try to hide. *sighs yet again* Got that from a song. How true it is. I really love Staind. I love Evanescence. *coughs* And I love Mike...more than anything in this world. If ppl could only see it. If ppl could only see how much he cares and loves me. They will, soon enough. Serves you right bastards. Doubt me and I'll throw it back in your face. Kari Look here she comes now Bow down and stare in wonder Oh how we love you No flaws when you're pretending But now I know she Never was and never will be You don't know how you've betrayed me And somehow you've got everybody fooled