Just a dry eye and all of a sudden I'm having a panic attack. I don't know what is wrong with me lately. I got what I wanted. I can RP again. I'm actually talking to the people that I truly miss more then they could ever know. Yet, it doesn't feel like it will ever be enough for me. I knew what I had and even then I fucked it all up. I don't know why I am so afraid to let people close and I really don't know why I have to be a fucking moron and push them all away. I hate how I treat those who love and care about me. There is nothing for them to understand because I need to understand myself first. Now, there is no fucking excuse to why I am a pathetic piece of shit. There is nothing. I wish everything was back to where it was before. The only thing I'd change: actually being a fucking friend. ~Karma Kayla