~~The Pursuit Begins When This ||portrayal|| of Life Ends~~ Things. Are. Shitty. I donno why I've been feeling like uber shit. It just seems like everything going wrong is my fault. I donno what's right and what's wrong, but it's all tied back to me. It's like I can't work on not hating someone. Mike just...I donno. I'm just not comfortable with Katey right now. I don't think anyone has to make me. I have the right...I think. I hate it how people think that they have the right and need to make someone like another person. Mike says that he has to defend people. Defend who? He says that I'm talking about Garrett behind his back. I'm really not. I'm not going around going..."GARRETT IS A WHORE!! HE SUCKS ASS!! *RAWR!!*". I just said that I don't trust his RP style. I don't really trust many ppls RP style to let them have any sort of control of any group by themselves. I can trust Corie, Kyle, Adam...and.............x.x Yeah...that's pretty sad. I can't even trust myself. Maybe I have been a bit vindictive towards Katey, but that's cause she's a recent hate. I still have a reason to be angry and to not like her. It's not like I can just forgive and forget that easily. It took me how many months to get to this point of tolerating Garrett? I'm just not one to forgive quickly. I've always been like this. My mom called me out on it. It's not like I like hating people. Cause...I don't. It's just that everyone I thought I could trust has destroyed it in some way or another. I don't have really anyone to turn to. I have Mike, Paula, my sis...not really much in the way of friends there. Maybe it's cause of my personality. Maybe it's cause I'm a hard ass. I donno, but there's no excuse for betrayal. There never is. Maybe I'm the one betraying them. Perhaps it is all my fault. It probably is. Maybe I just didn't listen enough. Maybe my advice was wrong. Maybe I'm just not the right person to talk to. I'll go with that last answer. ~Kaylaface♥