You know what. This is all fucking pointless. All of this bullshit is pointless. Go linger on someone else's life. I don't sit around and fucking bang on your damn door. Get a life. And this rubbing in my fucking face isn't making any of it feel better. At. All. None of you fucking get it. You took away what I had left. You took it all! And I'm supposed to just forgive and forget?! Are you kidding me?!!?! There is this fucking cloud hanging over my head and it's rained so much that the water is seeping into my mouth, choking me. I'm fucking drowning. Drowning. I'm never going to appologize. No. Not after what you all did to me. I had every right to say what I said despite what you people think. In the end, this was where I was going to be and I knew it. I fucking knew it! And to watch you, Garrett. You, out of all fucking people, to sit around and say that you want me to appologize and that all will be forgiven?! Who the fuck are you to demand that I appologize?! You tore me down more then anyone else on that fucking site not to mention lead everyone to tell Mike to leave me. He's all I have left! And I was so fucking scared that he would actually do it. Yes, I was afraid. Because I love that man more than any of you could possibly know or understand. I'd bleed for him. I'd die for him. And that's what I am fucking doing. I'm dying for him to make him and all of you happy. I'm sacrificing my happiness so that all of you can have some peace of mind. You were all right. I am a worthless piece of shit and sometimes, I wish Mike would leave me so I just disappear. It's for him that I still linger on, that I keep swimming for air. Take that away from me and I have nothing. You already took away the other sanity I had to escape my own mind. I'm sick. I have problems, but taking shit away from me isn't going to fix them. And none of you have even tried. I'm embarrassed to call any of you my friends. I can't believe that at one point I did. I gave up probably the dearest friend I could ever have in the world for one of you. I tried to take in some of your habits to maybe try to be something you all could like. By making myself fake, I was hoping that it could be something that could let me linger in your world. But obviously, it was never enough. I was never enough. So don't come around expecting me to appologize. I'm already sorry enough. I don't need to shout it out anymore. Jesus fucking Christ, I'm crying. ~Kaylaface♥