All of this anger has reached the surface. It is about time. I haven't been angry in so long. Let's just hope no one pisses me off cause I will go off. I hate being like this, but it's the only way to be free of the past. *sighs* Somehow, I don't think ppl understand that. I know that I once was so suicidal and shit. I know that I wanted to cut. I know that I wanted to die, but now, I don't really want to. Yeah, sometimes the pain hits me and I want to. Yet, that doesn't happen as much anymore. Sky and Mike helped me through all of that. I thank them...so much. I'm glad that I would rather live than die. Maybe there will be a different bounce in my steps today. I hope so. And Jolie...I'm sorry for the shit I said last night. I'm so sorry. If you died, I don't know what I would do. You are my best friend. I cannot live without you. You can be so much. I even bet that you'll be married before me. You'll always have the better life. You'll be able to do what you want. You don't need to be sad. Think of the future. Never think of the past. Kari Do you remember me? I remember you I lie awake and try so hard Not to think of you But who can decide what they dream? And dream I do...