I don't know what in the hell happened while I was gone, but I hate it. What happened while I was at Cedar Point? Are they forcing my Shadow away? Are they forcing me away from him? Somehow, I need him to survive. I mean, I love Sky. He's my world right now. I think about him every minute of every day. I dream about him. I can't look in the mirror without wonder how he sees me. Yet, Shadow's there too. I don't know how we connect. I think it could be something deeper than everyone thinks. Yet, I have to be with him. *sighs* Mike, I love you. Don't ever deny me. I might not be able to love you as I sometimes want to, but that doesn't mean you aren't a brother to me. I understand that you are worried, but understand that I don't need to be protected. I've gone almost a week without cutting. I've been wanting to talk to you as well. Just...don't hurt Shadow anymore. Kari My Shadow's the only one who walks beside me My shallow heart's the only thing still beating Sometimes I wish someone out there would find me Today I walk alone