Well, I confessed how I've been feeling to Mike and I feel a crap load better. The root of everything: I feel lonely and I actually miss...dare I say it for the life in me...the SC. I miss the old days. I miss having ppl randomly whisper me stupid shit. I miss when "clearly I do not like your trousers" was a bad ass inside joke. Miss the T or D. And overall, I miss just being able to RP with no real meaning with more then just two people. It's a crappy realization cause...well yeah. I fucked up good and I'll never get that back. So, I'm lonely. Honestly, it's not like I haven't had it before before or even during the SC. My mental ups and downs are about as frequent as me playing WoW. But, I do feel better getting this shit off my chest. Mike and I talked until 7:30 this morning. Despite him thinking that there's nothing he could ever do, he listened, and that's all I really wanted because there isn't anything he can do. There isn't anything anyone can do. No one can be forced to like me. Fuck, I don't even like me, but I feel like that weight is off my chest. So, back to WoW I go. Right now, it's the only place where I can go to hide. ~Kayla