Like, I really don't want to take this personally. I srsly don't. It's an RP and some amusing and good RPing has been happening. Well, some people good, others have kind of just been whining and BOO FUCKING HOO! -sighs- And then to both drag my name and my character through the mud when I did nothing wrong and think that it's okay to further upset and pissed off an already mentally strained demoness is honestly just quite stupid. My character will not stop until she's gone. Mike's plot was going to be the one to weaken her and give her some redemption. I don't know which side QQ'd harder to get their way, but it happened and now I can only go with the flow. It's an RP people. I've heard from some people it's not personal, but last night was the final straw. I may lie back and let you say shit about me and completely mind fuck my character, but he certainly will not. You said you would not alter your character slightly for me, he certainly will not alter his for you. He's actually pissed off now and I don't know what he will do. I'm just trying so hard to make sure that it's not something stupid as he has been doing for me. If you want my honest opinion...here it is. This is going to close on both sides and I hope it's somewhere near a neutrality. Yes, I took Garrett's side about the leader thing. Why? Katie herself said that she didn't want Kat to have it. Katey backed this up. It's a hard spot to have especially with Garrett in the fray. Trust me. I know. This is the part that confuses me the most. If Kat didn't want it, why didn't she just hand it over? It's obvious that she doesn't truly know what it is like to be a leader. It's her character. She's a rabid fighter and a powerful ally, but leader?! That she is not. Armok would not and will not go and "ask" for his position back. When he left, he handed it to AFR for a temporary period of time. AFR handed it to Kat after some conflict that caused him, too, to leave. AFR is fiercely loyal to Armok. This is obviously seen. He would do anything for his brother. It is clear. Even in the real world, you would never see a second-in-command take the position from his superior temporarily then not hand it back. That is a form of treason. If there was justifiable reasons that was handed out to him, then perhaps. Yes, Armok had Tanor mind fucking with him and controlling him. I could understand why Kat did not trust Armok to have it. I can understand why she demanded as she did. Buuuut, look at what happened afterward? Both Hawk and Assassin would not take arms up against or with both sides. AFR, who we all knew what would happen, quickly sided with his brother. Couldn't Kat see that maybe this was a futile effort? I know it's not in her character to back down. It's not in Armok's either. Her running was honestly stupid and Rose going with her is the ultimate betrayal for Armok. He loves Rose, then and now. Garrett stressed this and I see it, too. Running was probably a very large mistake made on Kat's part. There are several other ways she could have went about this with a very different, safe and decent outcome for both sides. She could have simply just handed it over after a few minutes saying that their choice is clear. She could have bit back her attitude and said that if anything happened that caused him to either be controlled or appear evil again, she would fight back. Armok would not have been too pleased with the later, but Kat would not have to run. No one really knows Tanor's true intentions other then Mike. What is clear is that there is a large split in the SC. Hikari was dragged in, not sure what was going on. She's desperately seeking redemption. At this point, she would do anything to grasp it. I will fully stress this in any post I can involving Rose or Kat. Honestly, there is more important things in the SC world then who is leader of the Shadow Clan whether it be Armok, who's character has to have control, or Kat, who is just trying to think of what is best for everyone else. I see both sides, but I had to side with Garrett. Not only has he been the one most willing to work with me and my character, but he actually includes me in on what he's thinking, feeling and wants to do with the RP. Him and Mike want nothing more then to bring me in. It's not about Hikari being a part of the SC. She will never feel she belongs. It's in her character. But, if Armok promises her a home, protection and love (not actual love, but a family love), she will take his offer. That is what she most strives for. I also cannot nerf my character right now. Mike and I discussed it last night and we decided that this "evil" in her will be a remnant of Tanor from years previously. It manifested itself into something on it's own, but once Tanor is defeated, it will disappear as well. This will lead to her powers weakening and some disappearing. I have been backed into a wall by whatever frustrations have been going on. This makes it harder for me to really be able to get her to seek her redemption. If you can't see this, then perhaps Hikari will never seek it and it will further her sadness and rage until Tanor's defeat. I don't want to turn this person. Every time I think about this crap, I see it in the RP sense. You two have driven Mike off and, last night, drove Garrett off. I don't know if you see how big that is. It's now personal for him and I hope you are ready to see what he will bring. I'm just hoping that this doesn't continue to get out of hand. You two have each other. Right now, Garrett has me and Mike. Our characters are loyal to Armok and I'm sorry now for anything both AFR and Hikari will do. I cannot change my character for you just like you won't change yours for mine. Hikari is a huge part of me just the same as Rose, Kat, AFR and Armok are to all of you. Her torment only fuels my want for her to be redeemed. She suffers and I continue to try to find ways to make it easier for her to grasp the one thing she wants. I only hope that you all understand that the only enemies are yourself and in the RP way, Tanor. I will be continuing to mention Tanor as often as possible because Hikari will be right. The world cannot have love and friendship if there is no world. Tanor is the evil, not Hikari, not Armok. Maybe Rose and Kat think this in their head. They are your characters. You have turned this too personal to see in the RP sense. Depending on the outcome of today if the hunt for Kat happens or not depends on what happens in the world. Despite how much fun I think a Hikari!Kat show off would be, I cannot make that choice for you. If you want to talk about it, hit me up after work today. I just hope you pause that enough for me. Don't let Kat just waltz in and think it safe or okay to take Rose. Please don't and use your head. If you choose for Kat to fight, then please wait for me to return home. Garrett said he will wait and I believe him. I do not know if Mike will be on again tonight. He was shaking in anger last night. That was honestly the scariest thing I have seen, felt or heard in my life. This RP should not be affecting people that personally. Also as a side note, bringing Corinne into this was probably the most dumb thing you guys could have ever done. Not only did you force it to be personal upon Garrett, but you have no idea what strain this could be on their relationship. Trust me when I say that it nearly ended me and Mike. He needs her to understand him. I mean needs. Please stop before he becomes too much to hold back. You do not know his wrath as I do. It would be rather foolish to let it grow. With all this said, I hope you all understand how childish this "splitting" of the SC in real life truly is. We each have a side, but I know me and Garrett are willing to work it out for the benefit of both groups. Mike may follow our lead. I do not know since he is fed up right now. Try to understand that you cannot fool him twice and expect him to just be his normal self. Even Tekken cannot help him right now. I saw it. If you do anything else to anger him, I will pounce. His happiness means more to me. I don't want fighting nor do I want people talking behind other people's backs. It's immature. If you want to know exactly what I think of you, please IM me. I will answer. I'm outtie because of work. I wish everyone a good day and I hope things can get worked out. I'll be back late tonight! I feel the need to have Hikari kick some ass. :p ~Kayla