I donno. I just hate going to work lately. There is so much that I just fucking hate doing. I hate getting on AIM because there is never anyone there. I hate having a new cell phone because no one ever texts or calls me. I hate going to fucking work because it feels like I'm alone. I hate coming home because there is nothing to look forward to. I hate getting online because there is nowhere to RP. I don't know if any of you understand. This punishment tops the cake of anything and it does hurt. It hurts more then any of you can possibly understand. I fucked up. I know it. It's my fault and I take responsibility. But can't you see that this is killing me? I feel like I'm dying all over again with nothing to save me. It's like a choking. I have nothing. I want nothing more then to be nothing. I don't want to be like I was. I hated it. And guess what, it scares the shit out of me. I don't want to be just another nameless face. I don't want to just be the one that everyone threw away. I'm sick of that. It's happened all my damn life. I'm so scared of the future and this shit is why. I hate having nothing to look forward to. I want something. I want something that any of you couldn't possibly understand. And I'll never get it back. ~Kaylaface♥