No, I lied. I'm devistated. I don't know how I could allow myself to trust someone I knew wouldn't change. The constant tests, the constant bashing, just being told I'm a doormat then being walked all over...I can only take that for so long.

I can sit here and tell myself to be angry. But will I actually be angry?

You used me. You used me to make an example of them. I was nothing but a puppet and I see that now. You played my emotions to get what you wanted. To make them "easier" to stomach when it came to RPing. How was what you did for the good of the SC?! How?! It certainly wasn't good for me, Katey or Katie.

I am so sorry, Katie and Katey, for my stupidity. I am so, so sorry. Whatever you wish to do with me, please do it. I'll accept any punishment. I should have kept my neutral stance to begin with. Nothing of what happened is for the good of anyone. All it did was tear us down. Yet, we are the heart of the SC. Without us, there is no SC. Actually, I should fix that and say without you two, there is no SC. I haven't been a part of it for a long, long time. I never will be until I stop fucking up. I don't think there is a chance now.

But, this RP isn't about me and my pathetic, drama queen bindings. We all need to work together to fix the problems. I stretch my chance to help, but if it's too late, I will accept what you grant me. I am, after all, nothing but a doormat.

I'd rather be a doormat then be what you want me to be.

~Kayla

as long as i live remembering you like this will be an eternal blame on me