I have had the most fucked up dreams lately. I had one in Chemisty about a shoe, a rope and a chicken. The chicken was not harmed in the dreaming of my dream. Last night... *sighs* My dream had Mike in it, that is for sure. I don't know what happened, but all I felt was this pain and him crying. I don't know what happened, but it must to with the pain cause then all I saw was blood and a knife in my hands. Great...I think I commited suicide. *sighs* These dreams always come when I am happy. I was just getting happy to be alive, now I'm going to be in pain? Maybe I really will end my life. I hope sp. I have being alone. ~~~~~~~~~~~~ Sky is pissed at me again. I don't know why. It was me, I know that. I always fuck things up. All I want is to be his friend. He knows how I feel about Mike. I couldn't say this two nights ago, but I love Mike more than him. I prefer him as a friend, but I won't get even that. *sighs* See what happens when you try to get better. You only get sicker. Kari My wounds cry for the grave My soul cried for deliverance Will I be denied Christ? Tourniquet My suicide