So, my mother said she "will" be coming out here for my birthday. I would just like to shout out this: HAAA HAAAAAAA HAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! She's a fucking liar. She won't come out. Despite me knowing full well she won't, I'm still getting my hopes up. I cried for two hours last time she said she would come out and lied about it. I even called my grandmother bitching about it. I think it's really sad that she's the one now disappointing me. I really should be used to it, but it doesn't make it hurt any less. It's my mom. Despite how much I can't stand what she is doing now, I do love her....very deep down. Very, very, very, very deep down. Sometimes I wish she wasn't my mother, and sometimes I wish I died instead of been born. ~Kayla