Chapter 6: My Last Breath Kari sat on the bus, looking out the window. She breathed in deep and sighed. It felt like her heart was breaking with every breath. How she longed to be with him. He was her drug, making her addicted. She couldn't live without him. ...Hold on to me love. You know I can't stay long. All I wanted to say was I love you and I'm not afraid. Can you hear me? Can you feel me in your arms?... Tears began to fall out of her eyes. She hurt everytime she thought of him. She hated him, but she had to have him. She loved him no matter what pain he put her in. ...Holding my last breath. Safe inside myself. Are all my thoughts of you? Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight... She wiped her tears and walked into the school. People looked at her. She hated it. She hated them. She was crying, but would any of you come to comfort her? No, propally not. ...I'll miss the winter. A world of fragile things. Look for me in the white forest hiding in a hollow tree. Come find me. I know you hear me. I can taste it in your tears... She was drowning. She could hear him call for her. Tears were hitting her cheeks even in the water. She was screaming. She was screaming for him. Calling his name. But he wouldn't return the yells. His hand disappeared. ...Holding my last breath. Safe inside myself. Are all my thoughts of you? Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight... Kari gasped. She had her dream during the day. She never had them like this in the open. How she hated herself. These thoughts would never go away because she never willed them away. Kari closed her eyes as she got to her locker. She had one last chance. ...Closing your eyes to disappear. You pray your dreams will lead you here, but still you wake and know the truth. No one's there... Tears poured from Kari's eyes. Several faces looked at her. She could see a teacher walking towards her. She turned and walked away. She had to hide. But where? ...Say goodnight. Don't be afraid. Calling me calling me as you fade to black... Kari was disappearing. She would disappear from everything she held dear. Nothing could stop her. She had to disappear. She wanted to disappear. That was her only escape from the pain. ...Holding my last breath. Safe inside myself. Are all my thoughts of you? Sweet raptured light, it ends here tonight... Soon, she would vanish forever.