Just kinda wondering what happened to a friendship I had with a friend. It's kinda sad. I never got mad at him. I don't hate him. I just wonder why. Is it because of Mike? Damn, Worn. I never said that we couldn't be friends. *sighs* It's kinda sad how all these ppl say they love me but in all reality, they love a part of me I hate with ever fiber of my being. Hikari's not me. She never will be again. I really should break away from being called Kari off the site. She was just a way for me to hide away. I don't want to hide anymore. I want to show my true colors. Now Colors by Crossfade has popped into my head. The lyrics really apply to me. It's strange. Yet...it is true. *sighs* I had another dream last night. It was kinda weird. It was the ending of my perfect kiss dream. So...I'll just start with that and move on. ~I'm with someone. His face is blurry, but I know it's him. It's the one I need. It's night and we're walking on either a sidewalk or a road. He looks at me and grins. I blink as he pulls away from me and goes into the woods. I follow only for him to grab me. He holds me close and I blush for the first time. I look down at the ground. His hand gently pulls my chin up. I see his eyes. I get lost in them as he pulls me in for a kiss.~ Now the new stuff... ~As we kiss, it's like the whole world stops. His arms hold me tightly and I know I'm safe. My heart is racing, never wanting for this kiss to end. I grab onto him as if begging him never to leave me. He deepens the kiss. Then time starts again and we pull away. My lips tingle longing to be on his again. I look down and he pulls my chin back up. Three words are whispered from his mouth. I smile as does he. Then I know I found my only love.~ *sighs* Damn dreams. Kari I'll be just find Pretending I'm not I'm far from lonely And it's all that I've got