It's hard comming back to a life that I didn't know I had. I have made new enemies and severed friendships. I followed my heart to only have it betray me. Have you ever loved someone so much that you would rather die then hurt them? I would give up EVERYTHING to be with the one I love, even though it is never going to happen. Maybe someday, I can find what I need. Yet, I don't want to lose the one person who knows who I am. I can't lose him. I would die. I don't care what my friends say. Fuck them. I don't care anymore. I have to be with him to breathe. I can't keep holding my breath anymore. Sooner or later, my chest will give out and my soul will break, but I will not fall from him. I must have him to live. I love him. Kari It's the first time I've ever felt this lonely Wish someone would cure this pain