Okay, I've been banned from my ex's site and Jolie says there is something going on. I am worried about him. He may hate my existance. And yes, I am over him, but he is still my friend. I care about him. I want to know everything that has been going on, but he'll never talk to me. I wish that he would. It's been 4 months since everything happened. Is there a chance that he could open up to me? I doubt it. I wish I could tell him everything again. He was always easy to talk to. He was my friend. He was a very close friend. Then, I had to fuck it all up by going out with him. You never go out with your friends. That fucking rule is true. NEVER go out with your friends. *sighs* Mike got food poisoning last night. >< We hung up and aparently he went and threw up 5 minutes later. It was some bad turkey. *whimpers* I hope he's doing better today. I really do. I love him so much. I've been going through a tough time lately. He's been here for me through each day telling me that everything will be alright in the end. We're going to have each other. He's right, you know? I want to marry him. I already know that I am. We're going to have children together. We're going to grow old together. *laughs* And from a nice quote from Leslie... *digs through mound of notes from her* >< There is way too many notes from Leslie. I have maybe one from Anne and one from Bianca. That's sad. And I just toss them on my desk. I don't have a place for them yet. >< I guess it could be worse, I still have the notes that Jeff and Tim gave me. v.v I don't know why, but I still do. Hell, I have notes from the 6th grade still! oO I KNOW! *digs through letters again* FOUND IT! Okay. I told her that I know that I'm going to kill myself when I'm older. She replied with..."v.v I can't let you die. Now, or even when we're old, crusty grandmas yelling at each other's grandkids. *glomps* ^^ We're sticking together!" *giggles* I really love that girl. I think I'm going to have some entries about the important ppl in my life, good or bad. >> Just not now. I've wrote WAY too much. ^^ LOVE YOU ALL! Kitsune Meet me after dark and I'll hold you I have nothing more than to save you again And maybe tonight We'll so far away We'll be lost before the dawn