Things are getting out of control. I started to carve alone into my arm. Wendy hasn't noticed yet, but I don't know what she'll think. She saw my cuts. I broke apart a razor so that I could get deeper, but to no avail. I'm still working on it. I'll make more tonight. I always do. I have to. It's a need now. *sighs* And then there is Shadow. I can't take this anymore. Am I deceiving him? Kari Holding my last breath Safe inside myself Are all my thoughts of you? Sweet raptured light It ends here tonight