I don't know why I cried my eyes out for Garrett...maybe it is because I still love him...maybe it is because Hikari took hold. Fuck it...I still love him. Everytime he has Armok just abandon Hikari...it's like he's abandoning me. It's like I'm not good enough. What did I do? I've tried my hardest to show him that I won't hurt him. I swear that I couldn't. *sighs* But I'll hurt Mike. *sighs again* No matter what happens...I will always love Mike more than anyone else. I will always have this attraction...this pull to him. He's everything. He's the world. I would die for him. I would live for him. I get lost in his eyes and I don't want to come back. I could stay lost in them forever... *sighs* Then why do I feel like such a horrible person? Maybe I should hide again... Kayla