oh ok so ummm this is my first entry... ha! well Ive had a few diaries (spell check?) throughout the years but have never been too faithful at keeping them... this is different i hope cuz typing is waaaaaaaay *holds arms way far out* easier. i feel like maybe painting... my boyfriend thingy and i had a talk about our troubled childhoods tonight... i love him.. i think im a jerk tho... cuz im always talking about myself... *sits upside down in chair* i feel bad about it.. i mean i like to hear about what he has to say.. he should make me shut up more. i cant go to sleep. its the last night of christmas break and i cant sleep even tho i have school tomorrow... *pukes a little* oooh thats what i did friday! at the new years eve party... *sheepish grin* if you havent noticed im spaced out... and i explain my actions in asteric form *see?* ne ways....(adds more dots for effect) ........ things arent so bad now. i wish i had written about it when they were.. but ill tell that Ultra-long story like some other time cuz if youve read cresten's blog thingy the story comes from a totally different point of view here... (im wearing his hoodie!) it smells like him... i miss him already... *pathetic*